It doesn't matter if it's just for a while, or for the rest of your life, it's still one of the hardest words to either say, or hear come out of someone's mouth. The worst thing is hearing someone you care about say it, it just puts a damper on your whole day. I had to say goodbye to James this morning, and it sucked, because with this whole "seeing each other every few days" thing, it makes a couple of days seem like just a few short hours, and when we are apart, it feels like years until I get to see him again.
On Friday I also got to see my other horse for the first time in about a month, and it was really hard to say goodbye to her too, even though I'll get to see her soon.
The worst kind of goodbye is the one without an explanation. The one without reason or purpose. The one that silences the heart in the blink of an eye because it wasn't said. Perhaps it's because one can feel that it is the last goodbye, but they cannot bring themselves to say it, or maybe they just don't say it because they don't want to, or they fear that if they do, it would be the worst mistake that they could ever make.
Goodbye is composed of seven tiny letters, but it can be used to describe a million thoughts and feelings. There is so much sadness and hatred and anger and frustration, though there could be joy buried in there somewhere, if one looks hard enough.
One single person is in fact my favorite hello and my hardest goodbye. Though perhaps saying goodbye just means that one can say hello again sooner?
I do believe though, that if one is intent on seeing another, they shouldn't say goodbye, they should just give them a kiss and tell them that they cannot wait to see them again.
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