I've grown as a person over the last few months, believe it or not.
I'm taking steps back to change the flaws in myself that I've grown accustomed to, or I just accept them.
One of my biggest flaws is that I am constantly thinking about what could be going right instead of what really is going right. In doing this, I feel like this is my way of making up for things that I'm missing in my life. This is horrible and selfish and completely unfair to everyone involved. Instead of focusing on what isn't right, I should be concentrating on and absorbing the good.
Recently I've discovered that I am letting my emotions get in the way of my decisions, but really they should only play a slight part in the role, as my judgement is usually clouded when emotions get involved. I have come to realize though, that when I feel something, it really is that feeling and not some inceptive feeling trying to sneak past me. Be it love, anger, or sadness, it will surface eventually no matter how hard I try to hide it.
I don't even know why I'm writing this post.. I just felt the need to do it, I guess Some things in life don't need a reason, they just need to be heard.
