I have a best friend that loves me, two beautiful horses and the best boyfriend I've ever had.
But for some reason last night, this feeling of sadness just poured over me and ruined my day, and it was a pretty good day. It even attacked my dreams and made me feel as unwanted as humanly possible. And when I woke up I was just crying and I couldn't stop. I don't know why this is happening to me, and I want it to stop. It's making me feel so worthless and like I'm alone in the world, even though I'm not. It's so frustrating. It just came out of the blue, as I've been so happy lately.
Maybe it's from all the thoughts spinning in my head, and my subconscious is just choosing to manifest the ones I'm most afraid of? Who knows? I definitely don't, and it's driving me crazy. :( I feel like I should say more, but I just can't.
